ALLTOOFAMILIAR♥

Tuesday, May 18, 2010 7:38 pm

out of sudden i feel like blogging. i noe ive been away for too long already. i dunno how or where should i start. but 1st little update about my 21st bdae party. of cos it was a blast one! i enjoyed every moment of it. i dont expect too much people will come to my mini celebration but it turned out to be the awesome bdae party that i ever had. thanx to the close one that helped me alot during the preparation of the bdae party. mwah! next work have been heaven to hell. HAHAHA! everything have change even too the tiny little things. *big sigh*. eventhough theres a big huha at work still i enjoyed every moment of it too. friends that always keep me rocking. oh and dont forget aunty and uncle too. When you are deeply in love, heartbreak can be traumatic. i feel that im going through a period of heartbreak, i noe that i must accept the fact that life goes on and so must i. i must face those feelings of rejection and anger by acknowledging them, dealing with them, and then achieving closure. The most important thing is to get in touch with reality. i wish that these heartbreak will drive through to the road of recovery and make it a lot less bumpy. how i wish behind my smile is a hurting heart sometimes. behind my laugh , im falling apart. look closely at me and you will see the girl i am isn't me. especially you. when i do something great, you will never ever seems to remember but when i do something wrong you will never ever can forget about it. because of you i try to sleep more so that i coudnt feel the pain more. yes i do smile to you but behind this smile you will never understand. never ever. of cos i dont want to admit anymore. its easier to lie, hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry. im sick and tired of crying for you. i just found it actually takes years to gain my trust to you but its just take a seconds to destroy it.I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any more of me left. Everything that ever cause a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more. I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. Sometimes I feel like it's too much. I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? But for now, just for now, it hurts. its just a random update for me. hate it, leave. TQ.

Thursday, March 25, 2010 7:44 pm

LOVE, It is not how much you do, but how much Love you put into the doing that matters. I'm so afraid to forget the feeling of hugging you close to me. How my heart beat when you look into my eyes, and all our memories I hold so dear me. i think it's okay if I'm selfish sometimes right? Because I don't think I'll be able to let you go. When i talk to you on the phone, i know everything is going to be okay and that we will make it, even sometimes we dont disagree with each other. and i believe that what we need to know about loving is no great mystery. We all know what constitutes loving behavior; we need but act upon it, not continually question it. Over-analysis often confuses the issue and in the end brings us no closer to insight. We sometimes become too busy classifying, separating, and examining, to remember that love is easy. It's we who make it complicated bb. and of cos boyf I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out. i also feel that being deeply loved by you gives me strength while loving you deeply gives me courage. i trust that one day we both can take our selfishness out and stop being ego to each other right boyf? i will never regret loving you. lastly, thank you for giving me a chance. ily!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010 5:45 pm

well. im back again. haha. i noe im always lazy to update my humble bloggie lol. heh. random update will be i start school already. overall i had fun. ( i think so. ttssskkk. ) and work always been fine as usual. alhamdullilah. and boyf the most I can do for him is to be good girl. I have no wealth to bestow on him. If he knows that I am happy in loving him, he will want no other reward. and earlier on he texted me; "thank you for lovin me all my life". i feel so blessed suddenly. heh.
below picture will be the gfs from work. <3's!

Tuesday, March 02, 2010 5:40 pm

jyeah! tmrw will be the day. woots! im lovin it. hope it will turn just fine. i miss you brat. without you always make me think of a stick of CareFree gum. i chewed. but it didn't work out. I felt pretty good while I was blowing that bubble, but as soon as the gum lost its flavor, I was back to pondering my mortality. so hope with you around make my life even better. im hoping for the best but i dont want to put so much hope. of cos im afraid that you will dissapoint me again and again. and whenever I think of the past, it brings back so many memories that im afraid that it will be happening twice again. hence, im throwing the bad memories that we had into space like a kite, and i hope it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new us. thank you brat.
just now at work we're shorthanded of one staff. as always we were working our ass off because evryone were so hungry. ate sandwiches for lunch today. *random* i suppose to make a trip to geylang with mama. but she canceled it at very the last minute. i dunno when and where actually im going to get the actual outfit for cousin wedding next week. tsskk. &&& i wish to party tmrw but i dunno. i cant make my mind horr. its raining here in the west. and the weather makes me want to sleep now. i guess i need to wash up now and sleep like a pig. heh. so enjoy ur beautiful tuesday lovelies!

Sunday, February 28, 2010 4:00 pm

A hard beginning make a good ending. Even if you are on the right track, you will get run over if you just sit there. and fear not that the life shall come to an end, but rather fear that it shall never have a beginning. The secret of getting ahead just started. The secret of getting started is breaking your complex overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one. the time will come when you believe everything is finished. Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. i want to visualize the things that i want. See it, feel it, believe in it. and now im learning the skill of forgetting. And move on. and fet u should too. =)

on top of that i dont think i had my sufficent rest yet. LOL! next up party like theres no tmrw. 3rd march cant wait. *big smiley face*