Saturday, August 30, 2008 11:50 am
holla.
saturday. hmmm.. going out everyone? i dont feel like going out and actually wanting to just rot and visit baby later at home. i feel so tired. sleepless night. been thinking. thinking really hard. my head spinning like no one else business. hah!. ate normal painkillers just now. i hope i will feel much better later. because i need to register my driving liciense later and im going airport with mama. sorry eh b. i cant meet you later. i will meet you tmrw instead yeah. miss you baby busyuuuukk. yest i received a called. asking whether am i still interested working as a part timer at their shop. should i? if i accept their offer then i will be working everyday. almost every single day. wah dee so workaholic ah! hahaha. i think i just need to reconsider it. enough said. will update soon sweet peoplesss.
to fee: where you? msg me la. lets go out and play.
Friday, August 29, 2008 9:16 pm
hopeless and helpless.The trouble now is i can't really keep my acid tongue under control. The only feasible solution is if i became less sensitive.
I was in bed reading and enjoying the stillness of the night. There was a sudden knock on the door, it was her. I had no choice but to crack the carapace of my solitude and pretend civility. I doubt she realized how unpleasant this was for me and that i really did not want to hear whatever it is she needed to tell me. She seem unfazed and continued, not caring if she was heard. It is quite nearly too much to bear. Can't she see i was thoroughly enjoying the commoving book prior to her intrusion? Doesn't she realize that obsessive self-pity is an all-consuming activity that leaves no room for conversation? Pfft. On and on she went...
There be good times and bad times.Past weeks has been rather rough on me. i need you.
to boybys : i dunno whether u going to read this but im so sorry for all the nonsense. showing tantrum to you every now and then with the condition u having now. SORRY. i need the old you. you used to make me the luckiest girl on the earth. i dunno what happen. maybe im not a good enough. tell me what you wanted me to do. i'll make you great to be a man. with a woman who can stand. who will never promise to leave her man.making vows to please her man. protect you from the pain. i miss goofy old you. im numb now. oh god! i miss you. really. 10:04 am
HAPPY BDAE IRA!
the last minute plan always the best. although it was just a mini celebration i hope me and cik nana make you very happy. i hope you like the bdae cake that we bought for you. blackforest cake from swensen. ure still the best niece ever. *wink
today friday. yay! like finally!. everyone lovesss friday. meeting boybys later. can we go and eat good food today? i want to eat seafood? please?
ps: ihaveabeautifulnight
Thursday, August 28, 2008 1:24 pm
i miss you bestie !!ps: imissrinhumairafee
10:25 am
JANGAN BUAT AKU SAKET HATI LAGI BOLEH TAK?! morning sweet peopless.today work as per normal not much thing to do. maybe because im super lazy to check the mail box. celebrating my babygirl, nurhazirah birthday this evening. i dunno what to get for her. it was so last minute. i hope i could think of something later on. i wanna go shopping. rin, when u free? accompany me can? ask jannah along keee..
I am young, that i can't deny. At least amongst those whom i'm close with. I, for one, refuse to accept the fact that people associate naivety with being vernal. The age old saying that goes, "wisdom/maturity comes with age" is just plain bull. How does one really measure age? Numbers, to me, with regards to somone's age is insignificant and primitive. The level of maturity of a person is by far superior as a measure of a person's age. i want to enjoy life. please love guide me along.
to whom it may concern: please he's not urs anymore. just give us ur blessings. we are happy now. we dont need u to destroy this beautiful relationship. leave and get ur own life!
garnering sympathy
Wednesday, August 27, 2008 4:01 pm
greetings to all.
decided to update another post as im super boring now. i just feel sleepy and i wanna go home. this claims form getting more and more confusing when days passed by. k3 niza on leave today. she went to JB to get her new hari raya curtain done. as im stuck at this office with stupid claims that i hate to do most. im trying every now and then to understand actually what that "CINA" wants. im trying okay. "oh god please help me".
to u: i know u are sick. please for once treat me like im the important person in your life now. can?! i just need someone to talk to. freshen up urself and be healthy. nak cepat baik kn. sleeping alot (i mean alot) doesnt really help u out with speedy recovery b. Now its like im this big emotional luggage that u has to lug around. I mean pardon the mood swings and all but i firmly say i am entitled to feel as such because of what has happened and (for all i know) whats bound to happen. I am not what one would call a pessimist, bu these days, all seems bleak. Like everything i do or say for that matter is somehow wrong. Right to the tinniest detail, in example my laughter. God i used to be feel like a trophy girlfriend. How often in one's life do you get to feel as such? Its saddening how it dissipates as quickly as it came. Learn to live with it. These very words are which i hang on to in moments of despair.
ilovemummydaddysistersathir
DEEEEEEE
9:34 am
holla.
Soo where do i begin telling strangers, whose existence i knew nothing of, the story of my life. The whole idea of having a journal is to basically put whatever it is bottled up inside us into words,be it petty domestic squabbles or pseudo-intellectual world issues. However in the age of computers and internet the belief of a private journal becomes irrelevant. The world of online journal welcomes and embrace intrusions from the unknown public. Enough said.
Soo welcome one and all to my life again. Of which i have decided to share with virtual souls out there. The thought of blurting out everything and then left to be picked and scrutinised by others seems less than welcoming but then again, i wouldnt know who's reading, thus it doesnt really matter.
as part from my family, boybys is very important in my life. although sometimes he such a pain in butt, for that i love you! boybys not feeling quite well this few days. this is due to his head injury (laceration scalp) . just a reminder to the lesser maturity people out there. u guys such a BIG loser! for that also i give u *middlefingerup. thanx for giving his life miserable that he now cant even be resting properly. poor boybys. visiting him later. but, he always never fail to cheer me up with his condition like that. yesterday phone call,
BOYBYS: "i got new name for u tau b"
*dee wonderin
GIRLBYS: "wat izit b?"
BOYBYS: "DEEBADAK!!!"
GIRLBYS: "geram je dengar!"
sunshine of dee life's. hahahahahahahah!. suke la u. 1st entry all about u. budak busok ni! till here. cheers everyone!
