Friday, March 27, 2009 11:11 am
It's so rare to find a person like youSomehow when you're the sky is always blue
The way we talk The things you say
The way you make it all okay
And how you know
All of my jokes
But you laugh anyway
If I could wish for one thing
I take the smile that you bring
Wherever you go in this world I'll come along
Together we dream the same dream
Forever I'm here for you, you're here for me
ANDD ure back tmrw bacen!!!
PS: i dunno whether i able to fetch you tmrw. im still weak. cmon fever go away...
The way we talk The things you say
The way you make it all okay
And how you know
All of my jokes
But you laugh anyway
If I could wish for one thing
I take the smile that you bring
Wherever you go in this world I'll come along
Together we dream the same dream
Forever I'm here for you, you're here for me
ANDD ure back tmrw bacen!!!
PS: i dunno whether i able to fetch you tmrw. im still weak. cmon fever go away...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009 1:30 pm
PLEASE KEEP IT IN MIND THAT I DONT NEED YOU TO JUGDE ME!
was trying to move on after you hanged up the phone on me.
but 15 missed called and 8 messages.
andd sunddenly ure right infront of my house.
im so touched and speechless when i saw you standing there.
now i know how much i mean to you. i hope we will be happy again. once more.
see you on saturday b.
to you: i know how much you have changed for me. i mean from last time to now. i feel so blessed to have you. although sometimes i told you that i was no longer in love with you but you will always know that i dont mean it at all and inside my heart ure always the one. i know you try to make this things work and try to be as sweet as ever. but what you just did to me just now was the sweetest thing ever that you done for me so far b.
thank you so much.
and i will never regret. ly!
to bestie: thanx for the sweet post you got there
and i will try not to disppoint you again.lyalso!
PS: im having high fever and it sucks alot.
was trying to move on after you hanged up the phone on me.
but 15 missed called and 8 messages.
andd sunddenly ure right infront of my house.
im so touched and speechless when i saw you standing there.
now i know how much i mean to you. i hope we will be happy again. once more.
see you on saturday b.
to you: i know how much you have changed for me. i mean from last time to now. i feel so blessed to have you. although sometimes i told you that i was no longer in love with you but you will always know that i dont mean it at all and inside my heart ure always the one. i know you try to make this things work and try to be as sweet as ever. but what you just did to me just now was the sweetest thing ever that you done for me so far b.
thank you so much.
and i will never regret. ly!
to bestie: thanx for the sweet post you got there
and i will try not to disppoint you again.lyalso!
PS: im having high fever and it sucks alot.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009 10:51 am
saturday met up with boyf. had our so called lunch at banquet 1st. then trained down to orchard. suppose to catch "coming soon" at cineleisure but no more seats available and we decided to watch at the cathay. its almost selling very fast and we got the front seats LOL. while waiting for the movie to start we snap some picturess with ugly background. haha! after the movie we went to orchard again to meet his friendss and had our dinner also. pictures below.
kpo braaattt la you!
HAHAHA! UR eyes gone~~
background sungguh tak hot okay! heh.
lawa ah hidong macam tuu. LOL!
on sunday i spent my time with the family. we went to hosp,orchard,parkway parade then had our dinner at kembangan and lastly marina barrage. awesome!
i thought yesterday was finally over.
the memorable 10 months.
as soon as i cabbed back home yesterday i thought of giving him a break.
although i feel that i need him almost everyday. i try to be strong.
i was very tired to just spent 5 minutes to text him that im home.
i skipped that and just washed up and went to sleep.
i woke up at four am and i received 5 text msges from him.
for the 1st time i feel that im also one of the most important in his life.
he's SORRY. to you, im trying...
I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it. so i guess this is my sayss and if you hate it, leave.
Monday, March 23, 2009 1:21 am
Time Check: 1.23am
i need to wake up at 6.30 am later for work andd still im not sleeping. heh.
the spoilt brat must be sleeping like a pig now. pfft.
What's important is that finally I didn't feel like there was something wrong with me. All those years of feeling (oh-only-god-know-what-im-feeling-right-now) had washed away. I was happy in the past. I was accepted. I had no reason to doubt myself, to question who I was, to wonder, to second-guess every action. Because here was someone who seemed to say "no, you're right. It's not you who's always wrong."
I wonder some nights whether I'll be happy again. I can't help but think that I won't, that it was a fluke, and that I screwed it up. Broken hearts like phantom limbs, pain that is intangible. I'll try to relearn how to be independent.
this is just a random post andd my saysss.
i need to wake up at 6.30 am later for work andd still im not sleeping. heh.
the spoilt brat must be sleeping like a pig now. pfft.
What's important is that finally I didn't feel like there was something wrong with me. All those years of feeling (oh-only-god-know-what-im-feeling-right-now) had washed away. I was happy in the past. I was accepted. I had no reason to doubt myself, to question who I was, to wonder, to second-guess every action. Because here was someone who seemed to say "no, you're right. It's not you who's always wrong."
I wonder some nights whether I'll be happy again. I can't help but think that I won't, that it was a fluke, and that I screwed it up. Broken hearts like phantom limbs, pain that is intangible. I'll try to relearn how to be independent.
this is just a random post andd my saysss.
PS: will update more about the weekendss later on. =)
Friday, March 20, 2009 11:28 am
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY NANA!I LOVE YOU!
Thursday, March 19, 2009 7:00 pm
above picture was taken on 17/03/2009. we spent our lovely day at town followed by dinner at pizza hut. thanx bacen.
*KL picturess. i just upload the random one only. all i can say that the hotel were AWESOME anddd its all about eating good food while i was there. heh.
*KL picturess. i just upload the random one only. all i can say that the hotel were AWESOME anddd its all about eating good food while i was there. heh.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 10:14 am
AWESOME trip.
will upload the picturess soon.
PS: yesterday i had fun too. thanx MABME!
and btw we manage to fix it.
he pulled her close and whispered in her ear, are you aware of just how much you mean to me? and she whispered back, it can't than what you mean to me, because that's everything. =)
Saturday, March 14, 2009 1:49 am
1 more hour to go and im off to msia.
boyf, i dunno whether i able to see you on tuesday. i will pray for you.
watever it is i loveee youuu so much and please take care of urself okay.
u noe i noe k b....
boyf, i dunno whether i able to see you on tuesday. i will pray for you.
watever it is i loveee youuu so much and please take care of urself okay.
u noe i noe k b....
Friday, March 13, 2009 11:04 am
im so pissed off.yesterday after work decided to go to Plaza Singapura to get my hp done.but when i was about to leave, the spoilt brat boyf called.Finally he's awake from his lonnnngggg beauty sleep.I dont mind going there alone but he insisted to accompany me.so ya i took my own sweet time because i know he will be late.annnndddd he was not late but i was.i was so happy that he waited for me. jarang okay ni budak satu nak tunggu2 orang. heh.we had our dinner 1st at far east plaza and we walked down to wisma to get nana leggings.while i was walking towards wisma i bumped into some people. and one of them was my school mate. haida hanim! oh yeah i miss her so much! i hugged her and finally i saw her daughter. sooooo cuteeee and fairrrr! after i done with nana leggings we went to plaza singapura to get my hp done. went to choose the design and boyf insisted to pay for me. oh thank you my lovely boyf. extra cassshh for KL trip la niii. heh. so the sales person told us to come back half an hour later. after half an hour later, i went to get my phone and asked boyf to switch it on back for me. When boyf about to press my pin code number, it cant be press at all. i was so damn pissed off and we went back to the shop and asked them what happen. fyi, my phone is a touch screen phone and they told me there's something wrong with the LCD screen and bla bla bla. wth kan! boyf looked at my face and he knows that im so pissed off. he knows that i will start to make a scene if im really pissed off with something. so to restrain me from being nasty to them he helped me to talk to the the sales person. boyf insisted them to pay for the service charge and all. so they agreed and give their number to us. we left the shop and on the way back home i was quiet and dont bother to answer any phone calls or speak to my boyf. kesian diee. sorry okay b. u tahu kan perangai i. so people i will be not reachable for this few dayss okay. enjoysss your weekend!
PS:im not being smart or paranoid at the same time i think i have the right. Only i can answer if i can trust him again or not. hence, i try answer this question to myself. Was he always good to me?, Could i trust him from the beginning?, am i willing to give him all you got and wonder everyday am i being bambozzled? Do he deserve me after all of what i have done for him or vice versa? Do i have the tolerance to trust him and give him one more chance? so yeah shitss happen. i hope we can pulled through once more.
Thursday, March 12, 2009 3:08 pm
i was late again to work just now.
i reached about 10.30 in the morning.
haha! my mum was like "u ingat tu company u nye papa punye ehh?!"
all i can say i maaaallllaaaaasssssssssss okay!
after which i have my spoilt brat boyf that turns me into orang gile just now.
seriously if i have a knife with me just now i will stabbed him to death! *evil laughss*
watever it is i still have my family and girlfriendssss to keep me rocking!
andddddddd KL baby! i very semangat one you noe.
i make a verryy long list already of what to bring for my trip .
heh. i cant wait lol because i need to be away and take a goodie goodie break.
time check: 4.30pm.
so yeah half an hour to go.
yayness! i will be going to Plaza Singapura later on. to get my hp done.
so everyone happy groovy thursday! all the bessssttt! LOL!
da merepek ah ni aku. -______-
PS: and im so ketinggalan zaman la baru nak buat facebook. actually for the sake of the gamess jee. HAHA! but if you lovelies have facebook do add me okay! *muackss
Wednesday, March 11, 2009 9:16 am
recently i have become so possessive it feels my life has put on hold. When im not with him, i will complained if he dont text me back within a certain amount of time and he meant to be going away for one night with friends and I told him for being selfish as i doesnt want him to go as i thinks he will forget about me. he have never cheated or done anything to make i think he cant be trusted. What should i do, i love him but this is getting too much to handle.
YOU SEE IM A BAD GIRLFRIEND AFTERALL!
IM TOTALLY A BITCH.
HELP?
PS: thanx fet. i know you will be there for me. and fee please accept my friend request LOL!
and shout out to my fanalinajolie i love you baby! KL babe!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 9:24 am
i cant concentrate plus insomnia, loss of appetite, anhedonia, feelings of extreme sadness, guilt, helplessness and hopelessness. the way i eat and sleep, the way i feel about myself, and the way i think about things all changed. i know there will be good times and bad times. i think im less important in your life. i use to feel lucky. but its saddening how it dissipates as quickly as it came. i give up. so long....
PS: Im going again for a short getaway to KL this saturday. yeah i need a break. =(
Monday, March 09, 2009 11:04 am
Saturday was just lovely having fun with the family. we went to T3 and parkway parade for our shopping spree. AWESOME!
MAYA QISTINA!
my lovely sisters. i love them both!
then on sunday went to meet boyf. An afternoon in town followed by dinner at nana thai. had a lovely evening afterwards. because my dear boyf brought me to henderson waves. it was my 1st time visit there. i noe i noe. im so the slow kan. baru nak pegi tempat tuu. k watever la. heh. butbutbut the part where i hate the most was that we must climbed all the way up la. by the time we reached there i was so totally no mood mode. penat sey! bacen boy lagi boleh buat kelakar ni when i alwayss complained to him "penat la bile nak sampai ni!". geram lol! so that explains why the ugly picturess i got there below. hahaha!
