THE BOY
i dunno what happen to me today.
as soon as i wake up i give the boy a call.
and i start to call him bodoh, idiot.
scold him for no reason.
i think due to lack of sleep yesterday night as i keep coughing the whole night.
i feel so restless till i feel like chopping off my mouth.
all the way i feel so cranky till i had big argument with the boy just now.
worst when he choose to play stupid game with his friend then talk to me on the phone. baaaaabbbbbbbiiiiiii nye perangai da datang.
but still i dont want to give in. he finally apologized to me.
the real thing is i always complained to him why you not like him why you like him why you not like him?
i always think that my boyf not good enough for me even how much sacrifices that he did to me.
i feel that i deserve more. i dont noe what actually i expect from him.
i dont noe why i always want him to be someone else as i dont realise that my boyf is bloody damn sweet ever.
*he will feed me everytime i eat. (almost everytime. even we went out. im the pemalas gile babi. if im at home my mum will feed me.)
*he smells my armpit. (even my armpit busok bacen punye.)
*he will never say NO to me. (even how tired he can be.)
*he will say sorry to me though he's not in a fault.
*clean my shitss. ( i was having a bad diarrhoea the other time)
*tolerate with all my incessant whinning. (hari2 die kene marah dgn aku.)
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actually if i want to list every detail that he did to me it will last till tmrw i think. hah! he's just fine for me its just that i dont appreciate him at all. i will take him for granted. when he leave me, then i will start to miss him very the much. i noe im always the chee bye one lol. back to the big argument just now, i decided to hung up the phone and just sleep. but after a while he texted me and he sent me this,
" kau menyambut cintaku dengan mesranya. ku terharu bila kau kata ku milikmu. sesungguhnya aku pun ikhlas merimamu sebagai teman dan kekasih "
heh. so jiwang la. but i smile widely when i read those messages. i make up my mind from now on to appeciate him and love him sincerely.
muhd athir, i feel that just yesterday i know you and im so sorry for the hard time that im giving you. i love for who you are and will never ever compare you with someone else anymore. plus the bising2 also okay. i hope you will feel the same way as how much i feel towards you idiot.
