just now i met boyf. we discussed on something important that makes me really hard to accept it. am not going to lay everything on the table to let you all see but i just feel like blogging what i am feeling right now. anyways, very big sacrifice that im gonna to make for this relationship. i mean our relationship. for me im not independent and i always rely on people especially my parents and boyf. I'm not complaining, its just that the thing that we just discussed, the sudden decision comes as a rude shock. i hope it will last for only one week and please boyf no more okay. im trying to learn to live with it. still, im upset with the whole issue thingy. *sigh